When health gets in the way

As an artist and with such a big passion for my craft, I always want to paint and draw. When I don’t paint and draw, I want to. When my health keeps me from doing so for several weeks, I feel like I lose a small piece of me.

My health is still to be determined, but I am well aware of the things I will have to deal with for the rest of my life. As someone who is in my twenties, it makes me feel discouraged. Sad. Sometimes I wonder if things will ever be okay again.

Some of my current issues react especially to me doing what I love, like writing, reading and painting and drawing. It forces me to take very long breaks, also from social media like Instagram. That is where I have my biggest art community. I talk to so many wonderful art friends who are very patient for me and I am forever grateful for that and for the continous support that I recieve. And because of them I know that when I am ready to come back to my brushes and pencils, those friends and followers will be there.

Being away from social media can be a relief as social media does put a lot of pressure on you. I feel that relief in the beginning of my breaks. Then eventually I begin to feel sad and like something is missing. Then I know it’s time to come back. However, my health does not always allow me to come back when I wish to come back to the art world. This teaches me to be patient with my body.

As of today I believe I have not posted anything on Instagram for the past about two weeks. The fear of coming back to no one have struck me before, but not now. Why? Because I know that people come and go, and that’s okay. Because those who support me will be there. And I cannot wait to come back to everyone when my health is no longer in the way.

Kat <3